That's the name of the chapter I'm writing right now. But it won't have the name in the book. I like to put this little title's on the chapters before I start posting them into the document of the book. Like, Tea With A Hint Of Fear, or, Visite Du Camp. That's French. Or the one I just told you, Kat fight.
Today I got a letter from Dorrance Publishing. All the way from the U.k. I was of course smart enough to Google them. I just found out that they might be a scam. Like Author House. Why is it that pretty much the only publishers that are interested in me, are scam runners? It makes me so sad. I mean I' I just not cut out for the writing world? I can't think like that.
I still need to remove and add some things to The Immortal, but other than that I've moved on to Paranoia. It's sister book. Umm.
Monday, July 25, 2011
Thursday, July 21, 2011
In Heaven
In case none of you know, I like to write y story from not only one prospective. Rose's is harder. To show you how much, I post a chapter in her prospective.
In Heaven
Even in heaven we may not find a haven. For even there you find the very things you need to escape from. Though in my early years may I have realized. Or may I just have needed a comfort away from comfort. I created place. I found a place. I found, created solitude. In a cave. In a palace. In a world unknown to so many. In a world where no one sets expectations. In a place where I can be me. Even if through times I don't know who me is.
My wings yearn and ache to come out. To taste the air. If for one last time. If for one more time. I let them free. For I cannot own what I already own. I might not find peace in this journey. I have time to set my mind. Yet not set a goal. I could see a glimpse of 20 years forward, yet it does not mean I know when it is to come or what is to cause it. And I might. Though consequences be dire.
I sit for I have run a thousand miles, heard a thousand things, witnessed a million things, yet no one has offered me a seat that won't leave me tied for eternity. I have no goal. I have a plan. It might be to live. It might be to love. It just might be to give up. My body has tired from the journey I had promised to take. The one I promised I would see through. Oh what hurt it has caused.
"And I remain right to your whereabouts."
"Aliana. Only you would know a secret."
"That's because I know where to find them. What exactly are you doing here at this godly hour. Didn't already pay us a visit? Something is wrong isn't there?" She sits in front of me. Legs crossed with her attention on the teacher. Ready for whatever story comes. Good or bad.
"I don't know. That might be the real problem. Everything is out of control and wrong these days. No matter where I turn it seems it's all wrong. Mocking."
"Is this because of William?"
"What do you take me for? A love sick angel?"
"Sometimes I don't even know you anymore." She stares at me and shakes her head. As if knowing I might take that the wrong way.
"What do you mean? I haven't changed. Not anymore that you don't know anyway." To be true. I was hurt. It was not my fault I wasn't able to be there all the time. We were closer than Lily and her friends had been.
"That might be the problem. The Rose I used to know would change most of the time. Even she would change her appearance," her eyes were no longer focused. They stopped at a color as if not with me anymore. As if remembering better times.
"She loved to fool people. She was lively. Would want to fit the times. Would even create her own time. She could cheer up the room. But ever since she took that assignment, she changed. She was stuck."
"I had no choice."
'Yes you did. He said think about it. Father made you promise you wouldn't die because of it. You broke your promise. No one ever begged you to take the job. You made a promise to me. You still broke it. You promised to keep it. You didn't. No one ever said you couldn't love. No one ever said you couldn't let it still happen. No one ever begged, or said you should do any of these things Rose. Yet you did them. So you had a choice. No one killed you but your self Rose. No one walked in your shoes except for whom you let. You're powerful. Use the power."
I stared at her. I was hurt, ashamed and angry at what she said. Angry at me mostly. I remember those times. I never begged to forget. I never wanted to forget. I vaguely remember the promise I made father.
* * *
"I want you to make me a promise Rose."
I nodded. Though I was hardly listening. I was filled with thrill of what I was about to do. It may be a on and off thing but I still couldn't believe it. I never dreamed of this, though I had heard of it. It's supposed to be one of the biggest roles yet.
Father laid a shining hand on my shoulder.
"Be careful, my daughter. Do not lose yourself. Don't kill the spirit we know. Things change. You have my permission to live."
"I-I-I'm sorry."
"You don't hate me?"
"Why would I? You're the only person to tell me the truth."
"Good. For a second I thought you were going to blast me. So you do have father's permission to do what I'm thinking, right?"
"I'm sure so. He did say I had the permission too live. I also promise to keep my promise." I held out my pinkie.
Aliana stared at it. "It might not be the most modern thing, but I am not giving up blood for this."
"Welcome back Rose," she said before offering her pinkie.
In Heaven
Even in heaven we may not find a haven. For even there you find the very things you need to escape from. Though in my early years may I have realized. Or may I just have needed a comfort away from comfort. I created place. I found a place. I found, created solitude. In a cave. In a palace. In a world unknown to so many. In a world where no one sets expectations. In a place where I can be me. Even if through times I don't know who me is.
My wings yearn and ache to come out. To taste the air. If for one last time. If for one more time. I let them free. For I cannot own what I already own. I might not find peace in this journey. I have time to set my mind. Yet not set a goal. I could see a glimpse of 20 years forward, yet it does not mean I know when it is to come or what is to cause it. And I might. Though consequences be dire.
I sit for I have run a thousand miles, heard a thousand things, witnessed a million things, yet no one has offered me a seat that won't leave me tied for eternity. I have no goal. I have a plan. It might be to live. It might be to love. It just might be to give up. My body has tired from the journey I had promised to take. The one I promised I would see through. Oh what hurt it has caused.
"And I remain right to your whereabouts."
"Aliana. Only you would know a secret."
"That's because I know where to find them. What exactly are you doing here at this godly hour. Didn't already pay us a visit? Something is wrong isn't there?" She sits in front of me. Legs crossed with her attention on the teacher. Ready for whatever story comes. Good or bad.
"I don't know. That might be the real problem. Everything is out of control and wrong these days. No matter where I turn it seems it's all wrong. Mocking."
"Is this because of William?"
"What do you take me for? A love sick angel?"
"Sometimes I don't even know you anymore." She stares at me and shakes her head. As if knowing I might take that the wrong way.
"What do you mean? I haven't changed. Not anymore that you don't know anyway." To be true. I was hurt. It was not my fault I wasn't able to be there all the time. We were closer than Lily and her friends had been.
"That might be the problem. The Rose I used to know would change most of the time. Even she would change her appearance," her eyes were no longer focused. They stopped at a color as if not with me anymore. As if remembering better times.
"She loved to fool people. She was lively. Would want to fit the times. Would even create her own time. She could cheer up the room. But ever since she took that assignment, she changed. She was stuck."
"I had no choice."
'Yes you did. He said think about it. Father made you promise you wouldn't die because of it. You broke your promise. No one ever begged you to take the job. You made a promise to me. You still broke it. You promised to keep it. You didn't. No one ever said you couldn't love. No one ever said you couldn't let it still happen. No one ever begged, or said you should do any of these things Rose. Yet you did them. So you had a choice. No one killed you but your self Rose. No one walked in your shoes except for whom you let. You're powerful. Use the power."
I stared at her. I was hurt, ashamed and angry at what she said. Angry at me mostly. I remember those times. I never begged to forget. I never wanted to forget. I vaguely remember the promise I made father.
* * *
"I want you to make me a promise Rose."
I nodded. Though I was hardly listening. I was filled with thrill of what I was about to do. It may be a on and off thing but I still couldn't believe it. I never dreamed of this, though I had heard of it. It's supposed to be one of the biggest roles yet.
Father laid a shining hand on my shoulder.
"Be careful, my daughter. Do not lose yourself. Don't kill the spirit we know. Things change. You have my permission to live."
* * *
"You don't hate me?"
"Why would I? You're the only person to tell me the truth."
"Good. For a second I thought you were going to blast me. So you do have father's permission to do what I'm thinking, right?"
"I'm sure so. He did say I had the permission too live. I also promise to keep my promise." I held out my pinkie.
Aliana stared at it. "It might not be the most modern thing, but I am not giving up blood for this."
"Welcome back Rose," she said before offering her pinkie.
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Wowie!!!
I haven't been here for a while. Went to this camp, supposed to help at this camp...... It's quite complicated. Not really. It's very hot here in Minnesota. I mean like extremely hot.
It's a shame I never get to meet any of the people I want to meet. I mean writers. *Sigh* Well same old same old with me. How 'bout you? I just manged to finish the first written chapter for the second book of The Immortal, Paranoia. Not that you care. There was just this absolutely amazing feeling from that. Kinda like a drug. That's not illegal.
It's not like anyone reads my blog. Or even follows me. So sometimes I wonder, 'Why write?' Then I think of my life ahead of me - actually I don't but that sounds so much cooler - and this might remind me of who I was and that I shouldn't change from that person. Who I'm I kidding? Surely not me. I'm not one of those crazed celebs.
Who else is kinda sad that Harry Potter ended. Again. I mean the book has already went screech. Even though I really don't watch the movies, it feels like I just read The Deathly Hallows again. Any's for anyone who reads this blog, besides myself, I bid you, Adios.
It's a shame I never get to meet any of the people I want to meet. I mean writers. *Sigh* Well same old same old with me. How 'bout you? I just manged to finish the first written chapter for the second book of The Immortal, Paranoia. Not that you care. There was just this absolutely amazing feeling from that. Kinda like a drug. That's not illegal.
It's not like anyone reads my blog. Or even follows me. So sometimes I wonder, 'Why write?' Then I think of my life ahead of me - actually I don't but that sounds so much cooler - and this might remind me of who I was and that I shouldn't change from that person. Who I'm I kidding? Surely not me. I'm not one of those crazed celebs.
Who else is kinda sad that Harry Potter ended. Again. I mean the book has already went screech. Even though I really don't watch the movies, it feels like I just read The Deathly Hallows again. Any's for anyone who reads this blog, besides myself, I bid you, Adios.
Friday, July 8, 2011
Phoenix.
A Phoenix is a mythical bird. In the legend, during it's death, it burst into flames. As a Phoenix dies, a new one rises from the ashes. A majestic bird, representing immortal life.
The aspect of the bird just amazes me. I don't know why.
The aspect of the bird just amazes me. I don't know why.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Me, me and me.
Since this blog is all about me, why don't you know a bit about me. The "About Me" section doesn't say much.
I am originally from Nigeria. Came here three years ago. Well it will be three years in October. I went to Phalen Lake Elementary. I an currently going to Washington Middle. I LOVE to write and read. There is nothing I love more than to sit around in my jammies reading and listening to music.
Well okay. There might be somethings I love more. I have this best friend - who is kinda only my best friend because he is the one of the best friends of one of my best friends. Complicated I know. Anyway he makes this joke about doing this voodoo. It's not really funny after a while. In fact it might not be funny at all. Anyway maybe some Nigerians do it. But it's considered evil and I don't do it. Because do you really think I'll still be here? Stupid boys.
I wrote a book - as you should know and I have a facebook, twitter, blogspot, yahoo and other. Very social bee. Ummmm........
I am originally from Nigeria. Came here three years ago. Well it will be three years in October. I went to Phalen Lake Elementary. I an currently going to Washington Middle. I LOVE to write and read. There is nothing I love more than to sit around in my jammies reading and listening to music.
Well okay. There might be somethings I love more. I have this best friend - who is kinda only my best friend because he is the one of the best friends of one of my best friends. Complicated I know. Anyway he makes this joke about doing this voodoo. It's not really funny after a while. In fact it might not be funny at all. Anyway maybe some Nigerians do it. But it's considered evil and I don't do it. Because do you really think I'll still be here? Stupid boys.
I wrote a book - as you should know and I have a facebook, twitter, blogspot, yahoo and other. Very social bee. Ummmm........
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Yay!!!
I'm convinced one day it'll all happen. But that not the reason for this post.
I am obsessed with the number 5. It's mainly because I was born on the 5th day of the 5th month. And yesterday - well more today - I finished my book. I stayed up till like 4:30. Including how long it took for me to get to sleep. I finished the whole thing. It felt good. It still feels good. Now I can start on the second book and my other ideas. Which are for six different books. Not counting the series if The Immortal.
I can also focus on finding a publisher. So I say to you universe. If you want me to stop raving about my books, find me a publisher. And an agent. Thank you very much universe. Aloha my problems. And Aloha world.
It's weird that they use the same word for hello and goodbye. But it'll have to do.
If I say it is then it is!
-Rose C
I am obsessed with the number 5. It's mainly because I was born on the 5th day of the 5th month. And yesterday - well more today - I finished my book. I stayed up till like 4:30. Including how long it took for me to get to sleep. I finished the whole thing. It felt good. It still feels good. Now I can start on the second book and my other ideas. Which are for six different books. Not counting the series if The Immortal.
I can also focus on finding a publisher. So I say to you universe. If you want me to stop raving about my books, find me a publisher. And an agent. Thank you very much universe. Aloha my problems. And Aloha world.
It's weird that they use the same word for hello and goodbye. But it'll have to do.
If I say it is then it is!
-Rose C
Monday, July 4, 2011
Happy 4th.
Happy 4th of July everybody. I have absolutely no plans except sit at home and work. Life is so hard.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Words.....
Might be posting too much too day. I have to go and write t 5:00 P.M. I smell something..... Not sure what it is. It's so sad to leave the Internet. *Sobs* "Don't go. Don't!"
You might not know this. A lot of the time I end up talking to myself. The person is already out of the room, and I'm still talking. Sad hen people look t you funny. That is why you must always wear a bluetooth. Or whatever it's called.
I have less than 7 minutes left. What can I do. For all ya that read this blog. I know favorites quotes!
"You'll be 45 years old. Think about it. Time as gone by. And not because someone threw a clock out the window."
-Kat C. The Immortal.
"Let me think about it."
"Really?"
"No."
- You know who. (Not Harry Potter.)
Now time has gone by for me. 2 more min. Had to help someone with something. The Immortal is the book I'm writing. I will leave you with one more quote.
"Departing is such sweet sorrow."
-Gnomeo & Juliet.
As the clock goes,
Hannah
You might not know this. A lot of the time I end up talking to myself. The person is already out of the room, and I'm still talking. Sad hen people look t you funny. That is why you must always wear a bluetooth. Or whatever it's called.
I have less than 7 minutes left. What can I do. For all ya that read this blog. I know favorites quotes!
"You'll be 45 years old. Think about it. Time as gone by. And not because someone threw a clock out the window."
-Kat C. The Immortal.
"Let me think about it."
"Really?"
"No."
- You know who. (Not Harry Potter.)
Now time has gone by for me. 2 more min. Had to help someone with something. The Immortal is the book I'm writing. I will leave you with one more quote.
"Departing is such sweet sorrow."
-Gnomeo & Juliet.
As the clock goes,
Hannah
For pete's sake.
Why must finding a publisher be SO hard. I am exhausted. Need more furl. I am aiming to finish the book by tomorrow afternoon. Which means finishing at least all of the remaining chapters. Editing somethings out, and staying up late. Like till 4:00 A.M. Which I've done before. Just not for something as exhausting. Wish me luck. Not that anyone is even reading this except for me. *Sigh*
Friday, July 1, 2011
Books!!
A lot of people don't know this except for my family. I love the work of Rick Riordan. I read a lot of books. And I LOVE a lot of them. Siren by Tricia Rayburn. Some of the books by Alyson Noel. I liked Need and Captivate by Carrie Jones but Entice just didn't meet my standards. It didn't meet a lot of people's standards. I have read a lot of comments about people saying they are disappointed by th last book. It was like the end was scribbled on paper because she had no time left. I like Rachel Hawkins and Rachel Vincent books. I like Hex education, Firelight, Unearthly, Paranormalcy, Lauren Kate's Fallen and the others. I absolutely adore Timeless, Alexander Monir, and Terra Lynn childs books. Oh and the Harry Potter series. I could go on and on and on!
The reason I like the Percy Jackson series, The Heroes Of Olympus series and The Kane chronicles is because for me the books have a edge of reality. Though so do a lot of the other books I read. The thing I love the mist is that Percy seems so real. He wants the life of a mortal child. He lives it part time. For me the books just seem real to me. I don't know why. Always been a sucker for the paranormal.
People may think I'm a little weird but you have to meet me. I'm real. Besides do you ever stop to think that maybe I might be the normal one and you the weird? Who knows the true laws of the universe?! I may be young but I know as much as you can dream up for you child. Intelligence, a good sense of humor, great at making friends, social but is able to restrain. But no child is perfect.
I once made up this quote. All by myself believe it or not. "May the future giveth the past. In assurance of what it giveth the future." Sadly not a lot of people get it. So ponder on what it means. And do not steal it. May your summer be filled with books.
Signing off,
Hannah.
The reason I like the Percy Jackson series, The Heroes Of Olympus series and The Kane chronicles is because for me the books have a edge of reality. Though so do a lot of the other books I read. The thing I love the mist is that Percy seems so real. He wants the life of a mortal child. He lives it part time. For me the books just seem real to me. I don't know why. Always been a sucker for the paranormal.
People may think I'm a little weird but you have to meet me. I'm real. Besides do you ever stop to think that maybe I might be the normal one and you the weird? Who knows the true laws of the universe?! I may be young but I know as much as you can dream up for you child. Intelligence, a good sense of humor, great at making friends, social but is able to restrain. But no child is perfect.
I once made up this quote. All by myself believe it or not. "May the future giveth the past. In assurance of what it giveth the future." Sadly not a lot of people get it. So ponder on what it means. And do not steal it. May your summer be filled with books.
Signing off,
Hannah.
Randomness.
Yesterday was hot. The weather was sweltering. My sisters and I went swimming. My older sister has been trying to teach me this trick. Unfortunately I haven't been very good. I keep threatening to drown. Even if it was only 3ft deep! I found it was so much easier to do it at for feet and higher. Even with that revelation, I'm still a failure. LOL.
Any's does anyone know a good publisher. Not independent. Sometimes I feel like the universe is against me or something like that. The beauty of summer. What 's with Kate and William coming to L.A. Just another random day with random thoughts.
Any's does anyone know a good publisher. Not independent. Sometimes I feel like the universe is against me or something like that. The beauty of summer. What 's with Kate and William coming to L.A. Just another random day with random thoughts.
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